After the rain....
It's been a slow morning. I've been up since 5am ~ I just woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. At first I just goofed around, playing games on my phone, or reading my latest book. After eveyone else was up and about, I was able to make coffee and get on the computer to check if I've received my mid-term grade, but there is still nothing. I called BYU and they said that written tests are given two weeks for grading, so maybe on Monday or Tuesday I will know. It's the longest I've ever waited for a grade....another reason I won't be doing this type of class again. So, I've been studying my new chapter, with frequent breaks to play games, watch news, and organize my notes.
I suppose I have a bit of ADD ~ doesn't everyone to some degree? When approaching a task I don't enjoy, I have to break it up into 15 or so minute increments. Otherwise, I feel my thoughts drifting away: what to have for dinner, the dog needs to go outside, my coffe cup is empty, a new e-mail comes through. I wish I had the ability to focus for more than a few minutes at a time, even if the task is a misery. No, especially if the task is a misery. In a few weeks I will order the final exam for the course, because it will take a week to get here, but I will have 30 days to take it. I have to complete everything by Oct 30th. Ugh. Why do I do this to myself?
And, while I'm bitching here, I'm really tired of people asking me how much longer it will be before I can graduate. Because it only serves as a reminder at how long this journey is. And it is longer than I thought it would be. I alternate between loving it and hating it. On a beautiful day like today I am inside sitting on my ass studying (ok, well not RIGHT NOW, ha ha) instead of doing any number of things outside. I think I will take a walk later, a really long one, empty the head. Just be.
I hope you have time to "just be" this weekend too.
Love, 365
I do the ADD thing, too. I leave the H out because I'm not hyper. If I were, maybe I'd be thinner. :)
ReplyDeleteI think we all have a natural inclination to put off distasteful things. I have a stack of mail to open that I don't want to look at, so I haven't opened it, for example. I probably should. Bills to pay. Haven't had a paycheck since June, that may be part of my reluctance.
As to your journey through school... just enjoy the ride. You will eventually arrive at your destination and it's better to arrive without your hair or your brain in a shredded state. ;)
Yeah, I have to leave the H out too....again, the "thinner" thing. But even though I have done a bit of dieting lately, I don't let my weight dictate my life....too old for that nonsense.
Delete***And yesterday, Rochelle asked me "So how much more do you have to go?" ~ arghhhhh. Stop the madness. I think I'll get a tee shirt that says "please.....don't ask". ha ha