What the hell am I doing?

The margarita glass in the forground hopefully explains this photo.....

I went to the "working interview" on Monday, and seemed very successful.  Then the office manager told me how much they were willing to pay, and I declined.  Seriously, I can't accept a job that would leave me pulling money out of savings each month to meet our financial obligations.  However, I don't regret the experience.

I could not sleep that night though.  I tossed and turned, but I was awake by 2am and never could go back to sleep after that.  At 4:30am I got up and started my day, but I didn't feel well at all, so I don't know if it's just stress (my first guess), or something else.  A few of my friends have been sick lately.  I had a call from a couple of places I sent a resume to, so I called one of them (the other indicated it was a entry level position that paid even less than the animal hospital), and while I was speaking to Kim, I said something really stupid.  She asked me my duties at my previous job.  After I gave her a run down, I said "Oh, and I really am great with dealing with people, and they like me!"  Oh, good grief.  I almost called her back to tell her I didn't mean to say it like that, that what I meant was that I have a good rapport with our patients.  It almost seems like I purposefully sabatoge myself in these exchanges.  WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?????

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